I HATE CROCODILES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tonight at dinner we were discussing our days, nothing big. Lorelei finished earlier so she’s hanging out beside the table. At a lull in the conversation she turned to me and screamed I HATE CROCODILES!!!!!! We’ve all felt that way at some point in our lives.

The actual big stuff since my last update is Moriarty starting school, and Papa Kent passing away. Moriarty started the first week of January. We found him kid-sized KN95s in different colors, including pink! He had left his Paw Patrol backpack in Idaho so he has to use our cast-offs for a couple weeks but was a trouper. He has the same teacher as the first couple days when he started. He’s made 4 friends, all K and 1st grade girls, and wants them to come to his birthday celebration next weekend. He’s so happy! 1st grade has very little homework but he does have to do a reading log, and prepare sentences for sharing to his class about rotating topics.

Covid exposures have been extremely high since Omicron emerged. The reason we didn’t put him in public school last year was the first Covid emergence. Then I enrolled him and Delta hit and we pulled him out quickly. Then I enroll him and Omicron hits and I give up! I GIVE UP. If I can’t let him go to school at this risk level, what if something worse comes along in 6 months and he misses more and more school. I feel like there’s no good solution, so we’re rolling with it. We get daily updates about positive tests by classroom. When the email arrives my heart stops until I open it. Will it be us? Is it our turn? Can we handle this? So far it’s not us. That’s what matters. We’ve started testing him on Sunday evenings to help make sure he’s not asymptomatic and putting both Lorelei and his classmates at additional risk.

We took 2 trips to Idaho to visit Pam and Kent. They also came here. We got to play a lot of cards! The kids played with the neighbor girl that Moriarty has become good friends with. We ate a lot of food. We gave a lot of hugs. It was hard to get the kids to/from Idaho, twice, but it was worth it. I’m so glad we took the time and spent the energy.

Lorelei’s language improves every week. It’s really impossible to describe how much fun she’s becoming. Now, she’s struggling to nap so she’s not actually “fun” much in the evenings these days, but she’s so charming! While most of what she says is articulate, she has picked up a few odd constructions. She kept asking me for “a milk of glass”, and of course I knew what she meant, but it was so cute I kept saying it. Oh well. I know, my mother would never approve. She was very big on talking to children like they’re adults with less experience, never using baby talk or the wrong construction. But, it’s SO cute! One morning I saw her express to Moriarty how big she was getting. “You can see me now Moriarty. I’m bigger now. I’m bigger and bigger and bigger!” and using her arms to show how huge she was getting. Another time at breakfast I encouraged her to eat over bowl instead of getting a bib. I said “you got this”. She replied, “I want my bib. I don’t got this".

Moriarty’s reading and writing have improved a lot. I think he’s being challenged more. And he’s so happy! He’s using words he hears us say, much to my delight. I heard him say to Pip “you just put it back on the shelf precariously?” He’s still obsessed with calendars. We started marking days on a calendar when he was Lorelei’s age. He still loves to mark up his calendar. We had some drainage work done and he asked when they’d be done. I said next Thursday. He looked at his calendar and exclaimed, “There is no next week!” He’s finally learned to ride a bike. He was great on the balance bike 3 years ago but he was intimidated by riding without training wheels. Pip and I just refused to put them on his bike, and I guess he accepted that, and just tried. He could ride within 30 min. His tantrums have also dropped even lower since starting school. We expected that, but it’s validating. He’s 100% taken on the roll of “boss” for Lorelei. We taught her the phrase “you’re not the boss of me” and she tells him often. I’m getting firmer with expectations around his behavior. It’s great that he’s making his lunches and is responsible for his school work. But I expect more! I’ve set the completely rigid boundary that if he fights about bed time, throws tantrums, etc, that there will be no Lego Store that week. There is no more grey area. No more piecemeal consequences. He’s old enough to keep it together about bedtime and treats, with our help and support of course. I’m hopeful. I’m really hopeful.

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I am not throwing away my shot!

Right this minute my kids are on their first 3-way call. With their grandpa. Moriarty has scheduled Lego building time with Phil a few times a week, and Lorelei has been crashing more and more because she likes Phil too. Right now they’re each on the zoom call with their own laptop playing some game with giggling and shouting ‘SEE YOU LATER’ over and over. This is my village giving me a break.

Both kids are definitely developing, but in directions of diverging pleasantness. Moriarty competent, Lorelei incompetent (in emotional regulation). Moriarty is reading so much more. He’s writing more. He’s initiating making signs and writing in this little (pink) composition book Pip bought him. It’s incredible. It’s mind bending. He’s already finished ~4/5 of the total 1st grade curriculum in his self-paced online school. Now Debbie is creating supplementary work to reinforce concepts and do more playful hands-on stuff. Right now they’re doing a unit on Native Americans of the PNW. She has worked with a local tribe for years and is teaching Moriarty about the reality of traditional Native American lives. They’re watching videos of traditional dances and people reading traditional stories. He’s making a book and drawing/writing about how they lived and what they ate (pics linked). It’s so fun to watch. He told Debbie this week that he LOVES drawing and art. I knew he liked it, but this was more passion than he’d expressed about anything other than firetrucks and the color pink. I can support that passion! 

Lorelei is having more tantrums. Because at 2 her feelings are bigger than her body, like they do. It does come out as hysterical quotes because despite being immature emotionally, she’s quite articulate about her feelings and desires. A charming example this week:

Pip: Lorelei, I'm not giving you anymore, I've already given you half my lunch

Lorelei (screaming): But I just want it all!

She’s completely in the literal phase. We were playing a plastic fishing game and I got that old jingle for Goldfish Crackers in my head. o/ I love the fishes ‘cause they’re so delicious. Gone gold fishing o/ Lorelei replied deadpan, “It's for pretend. Please don't put them in your mouth”. With that literal mind she also has no tact. I often eat a cookie or brownie in  the evening after the kids go to bed. I had given her one bite of brownie in the kitchen, then brought my, very reasonably sized, brownie to the couch. She came in and saw me eating it and said, “Is that your brownie? It's bigger. It's this big” and she gestured her arms all the way out. I was fat shamed by my toddler. 

Moriarty is hilarious in how own 6-year old ways. At dinner the other night we were telling knock knock jokes and being silly. Pip asked him “what’s black, white, and red all over” and gave the answer that it’s a newspaper. Then it occurred to me he might not know what a newspaper is. So we asked him. And he said, “It's like Reddit, just on paper.” I couldn’t be prouder, and a little embarrassed. 

Halloween happened. We did another scavenger hunt, but this year we actually wrote out hints for Moriarty to read and solve. He was so excited he couldn’t focus on reading the words and was just jumping up and down a lot. It was charming. There’s a full survey of candy preference in a linked pic.

We lost a chicken to a coyote. Moriarty and I heard the loud clucking of death through the door (it was still dark outside, yay high latitude). He and I went to investigate and saw the coyote streaking across the lawn, but it was running in the direction we found Ender, not away. Upon more searching we found another chicken, Artemis, trapped in some blackberries. We saved her life in the nick of time. Turns out they’d gotten out of the run overnight and couldn’t get back in. I shored up the run and am being more careful about locking them into the stronger metal coop at night. Ugh. Moriarty had a great attitude about it. He told me he hopes “when Ender’s body turns to dirt, grass grows in the dirt, chickens eat the grass then we eat the chickens…”. This version mutated into hoping the chickens would have babies that we’d adopt. I liked both. He has a great perspective on the circle of life. 

And the highlight of highlight of highlights of the month: He got his vaccine!! First shot, the next is in another week. We’re making a list of things he wants to do once it’s safe: the local kid science museum, Japanese steakhouse dinner, sleepover with Miranda, etc. I feel so much better already.

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Random Videos of Awesomeness

Lorelei proud of herself for putting together the bridge in the train set

Lorelei being a whirling dervish

Both kids doing a silly walk

Me and Lorelei feeding the chickens veggie snacks

Lorelei imitating a monkey

Moriarty being Don Quixote, with a water sprayer

Yes, I Know That

So last post I talked about Lorelei’s snarky response from me telling her whining isn’t funny. She replied “it is to me”. Well, to this collection we have now added, “yes, I know that”. Not expressing snark, but instead her rapid maturity, she told Pip, “When I was a tiny baby I said ‘Lorelei self’”. But my absolute favorite new utterance has to do with astrophysics. Seattle gets dark quite early in the fall. So for many months when Lorelei went to sleep it was light outside. Now it’s dark. She has insistently been asking why it’s dark at bedtime. 

Lorelei: Why is it dark outside?

Pip: We’ve talked about that every day this week

Lorelei: ……..THE SUN IS ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE PLANET!!!

Amazing. Neverendingly cute. She’s appropriately controlling for a 2 year old, not just with us and Moriarty, but with the chickens. She’s tantruming more but that’s normal. She’s also getting much better at asking for things and saying please (this has required me to solicit this many many times a day but it’s working). 

Moriarty is flying through his online school curriculum. I was concerned he’s not actually paying attention, but he’s learning stuff. :-) Debbie does most of the teacher role but I like staying involved. More exciting to me is that he’s sounding out words on his own, in normal life. He’s just reading stuff. It’s AMAZING. At the moment he is searching a database of Lego sets and keeps asking me how to spell words like firefighter and helicopter. Instead I’m making him sound it out and support but not tell him (except the weird stuff like ght, of course). And he’s killing it. He’s lost his other front tooth but is insufficiently lispy. sigh

Lorelei’s growth, beyond linguistically, has been vertical. She’s getting so tall. Part of being tall is that things she used to be able to walk under, she can’t walk under. For a while now she’s been hitting her head on the table. She also routinely hit her head getting out of her booster chair (we stopped strapping her in many months ago). Pip and I instinctively put our hand between her head and the table. A couple weeks ago I noticed she very intentionally avoided the table on her way down. And when she has to crawl under the table to get something she looks up and backs out low so she doesn’t hit her head anymore. HER PROPRIOCEPTION HAS ADVANCED! I’m oddly excited about this. I guess I think it extends to other body parts and incoming physical capabilities. We’ll see.

Moriarty is expressing his curiosity and daring spirit through food these days. Beyond the absurd volume of chicken nuggets he wants to eat, he’s invented a Moriarty Special sandwich. It consists of bread, raspberry jam, turkey, spicy pepperoni, and sharp cheddar. And last but definitely not least, he gave me the biggest gift in a long time. He played ukulele while I played guitar. I’ve been trying to get this happening for years! He has a high quality uke his grandparents gave him a couple years ago but his fingers were very weak and he couldn’t shape the chords. I tried a few times but he wasn’t interested. Last week we played Wheels on the Bus together. It only has 2 chords and he was able to keep up. Best gift ever.

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Other Cute Videos

On the merry go round

Riding a fire truck? (aka mattress?)

Lo with diablo

Licking the beaters

Change of Plans

I’m going to start with happy things. Lorelei loves blue. She tells us that several times a day. Understandably so, blue is a great color. But she gets upset when Moriarty uses a blue bowl or plate. That’s less awesome. But the other night on the couch at bedtime books she said “I love blue” and I replied, “I love blue too”. “No, I love YOU...and daddy too”. OMGOMGOMGOMG. My heart exploded. Her language also gets better every week. She’s repeating phrases she hears with the same inflection and facial expressions. So when I was making her breakfast and she was whining about something, I said “whining isn’t funny” in a sternish looking parent face. She replied in a taunting tone with her face cocked slightly, “it is to me”. I had to leave the room I was laughing so hard. All her sentences end in substantial pitch rise at the end making it even funnier.

Now onto the less awesome stuff. Aug 30 Lorelei started daycare. We were all very excited, including her. When we got to her class there were other kids wailing which freaked her out. She separated fine. I cried in the car, of course. Sadly, she was crying when we got back. It was emotional all around. The next day Moriarty started 1st grade. He was very excited, I cried in the car. :-) For weeks leading up to this I’d gotten more anxious as the Delta variant surged. I kept telling myself this was the social connection the kids desperately needed. A month ago it was much safer and now it isn’t. The afternoon of Moriarty’s first day when I picked him up dozens of kids were huddled together waiting for a bus that was late. They were practically on top of each other. That was disconcerting. Day 3 of Lorelei’s preschool we got an email that a classroom had shut down for 2 weeks for Covid exposure. Pip couldn’t sleep that night. When I’m hyper anxious that could be my internal crazy, or reality; it’s hard to tell. When Pip can’t sleep, it’s real and serious. We talked to our old nanny, Debbie, that night and decided she would come back and we would pull them out of school. That weekend Moriarty mentioned, offhandedly, that a girl had thrown up on the floor of his classroom. When I talked to the school on Tuesday to unenroll him they wouldn’t tell me if that girl had been tested and was negative, or just didn’t get tested. We also got an email that another preschool classroom had closed for quarantine. The next week we learned from friends the entire daycare closed for quarantine. We 1000% made the right choice but it’s been an exhausting whirlwind to do all the paperwork, pay non-refundable deposits, get allergy info and epi pens to everyone, buy school supplies, etc. Then calling everyone back to unenroll, get epi pens back, etc, etc, etc. Debbie needed a couple weeks to wrap up stuff and quarantine from the kids after their high exposure risk. Pip took off those 2 weeks and hopefully life will become more normal when Debbie is back. Hopefully. Now that I feel exhausted and angry again, let’s move on to happier topics.

Moriarty started online school last week. He’s breezing through math and science. He hasn’t started Language Arts or Social Studies, but I have no doubt he’ll finish the curriculum much faster than expected. It’s a fully self-paced course with additional hands-on/worksheet stuff to do with the parent/tutor. 

Up until now we’ve done a few Movie Nights with Moriarty and he can mostly sit through a movie now. Last week we watched the Sound of Music. It took 2 nights because it’s super long, but it started a conversation about Nazis, and what can happen when the government lies to the people. What can happen when people start thinking that other humans aren’t as good as them, for whatever reason. We talked about how both his great grandfather’s fought against the Nazis and how important it is to look for truth and reason in the things we believe. (We skipped the scary gory stuff of course) We had mentioned to some of our other parent friends we were watching this and they all said ‘oh, we are avoiding that for a few more years’. But Pip and I think it helps create parallels with the discussions we had during the 2020 election about looking for truth and not just believing what people tell you. That people in power often lie, regardless of their politics, and we want him to examine the evidence to make up his mind. Oh crap, we’re back on depressing topics.

We’re slogging through. We’re hooking Moriarty up with some online social groups and park meet-ups. Pip still has lots of PTO (we’ve done no real travel in ~2 years) so he’ll keep picking up my slack. My start-up has been in crunch mode for a month or so so I’ve been extra drained having to do all the school logistics too. But I always land on my feet. Occasionally I’m leaning against something heavy because I’m half unconscious, but we’ll keep doing whatever we can to keep the kids safe and sane.

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Fun Videos:

Playing at the beach

Lorelei kinda sucks at bubbles But is great with blow-up swords

That’s no moon, that’s a space station (slo-mo edition)

Momma & Baby snuggles

Being frogs

Welcome to the 1st Person

2 weeks ago:

Lorelei come too?

Mommy give Lorelei a hug

Now:

(looking in the mirror) That’s ME

I like blue

Me: are you still eating your food? Her: I am.

We’ve entered the 1st person! It’s a huge linguistic and developmental milestone. She sounds much less like a baby and more like a tiny person with a pathetic vocabulary and a terrible speech impediment. We’re focusing on specific sounds to help us understand her more. So tootie and rattoon will become cookie and raccoon. Though we think rattoon is SO darling it will probably become family lexicon. 

Did you know that Moriarty can read? I know I’ve been saying that for months, but this week he and I have done night reading where I do about half the sentences, and he does about half. He’s sounding out 2 and 3-syllable words. I’m so proud of his persistence; it takes a long time to give up and I have to stop myself from just telling him the answer. There are some gaps that will come this year in 1st grade. More practice with double vowels, silent ‘e’, etc. But the more we practice the better he gets. We had a family field trip to the library and found early readers with his favorite thing in the world, firetrucks, and some with Paw Patrol. Lorelei had never been to the library and was very excited by all the books and the art on the walls.

Lorelei will be going to the Montessori preschool the kids were in before Covid lockdown. She’ll be in the pre-Montessori classroom for about a year until she’s old enough to graduate to the big kid class. Moriarty starts first grade at our neighborhood elementary school. Of course I have deep anxiety about them being out during the Delta upswing, but I still believe Moriarty can’t tolerate another year home. He’s been doing so much better since starting counseling, but we also ramped up his social time with friends and cousins on  the weekend so I’m a bad parent scientist. I think both are helping. But school seems like a critical thing for him. Moriarty’s school orientation (zoom) was this week and I’m so impressed at the wokeness. The counselor advocates and leads meditation and calming exercises. They understand that apologizing isn’t as effective as amends so that’s what they expect, and they do ongoing social-emotional learning as part of their curriculum. 

Moriarty has been given the chore of collecting the chickens’ eggs every morning and letting them out of their coop, into the fenced run. He takes it very seriously. We created a big chart on the whiteboard where he tracks the date and which color eggs he finds. I decided that eggs our chickens lay are ‘lafleggs’ so now at breakfast I make scrambled lafleggs for us all, which both kids think is SO cool. We baked muffins with the lafleggs and I have decided this will be called lafluffins. We shared with the cousins last weekend. It just feels so special to have a mini farm and eat off our property (I mean beyond the garden vegetables, wild strawberries, backyard apple pie, and front yard blackberry pie…) OMG we’re homesteaders!

Quotes of the month:

Moriarty is bothering Lorelei and she’s frustrated. Debbie asked her, “is Moriarty the boss of you?” Lorelei replied, “yes” in a very distressed voice.

Lorelei is obsessed with hiding binkies in my pocket and other places. She told me “close the binkies in my shirt. haha that’s funny”.

Moriarty was outside and needed to pee. He told me in a curious voice, “even though my pee is a liquid the moss won’t suck it up”.

Fun videos:

Lorelei waving a ribbon wand

Lorelei bouncing on ball on trampoline

Lorelei talking into the fan

Me reading bear snores on

Transplanting strawberries

Lorelei singing rockabye baby

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123456789!!!!!

We begin this month’s blog with funny stuff the kids have said. They’re constantly growing up, of course, but the language gives insight into thinking that was blocked off to us before. 

Pip: Lorelei, how many more strawberries do you want? 

Lorelei: 123456789!!! 

Me to Lorelei: Are you going to eat some of your chicken?

Lorelei: No. It’s too yummy.

(also happened with bacon????)

Moriarty: Sometimes, when I’m washing my hands, I like to open the mirror, so instead of seeing myself, I like to go-over the assortment of that stuff *gestures at contents of medicine cabinet*

Pip to Lorelei: Are you mad that you’re sleepy?

Lorelei: yes…(whisper) no sleep no sleep

Me to Moriarty: Humans can't make babies with chickens... Their DNA wouldn't work like that.

Moriarty: *thinks for a minute* and the chickens would run away from me.

And not, funny, but an exhausting new phase, ‘why?’ *pointing to the rubber base of my insulated water bottle”

Lorelei: What is that?

Me: That’s a rubber thing to protect it; Lorelei: why?

Me: in case it falls down; Lorelei: why?

Me: i don’t want it to break; Lorelei: why?

Me: i like water; Lorelei: why?

Me: i get thirsty; Lorelei: why?

Me: i’m a mammal; Lorelei: why?

Me: evolution; Lorelei: why?

Me: primordial ooze; Lorelei: why?

Me: big bang; Lorelei: why?

Me: …; Lorelei: why? why? why?

Something is definitely happening with her developmentally. Almost all kids go through a more trantrummy phase around this age but her language skills are so good we can almost always help her get what she needs, avoiding the frustration that leads to tantrums. So, she’s been pretty chill for a 2 year old. Until last week. She’s started freaking out before even asking for what she wants. Like she thinks we can read her mind. We’re spending a ton of time saying "Lorelei, I don’t know what you want. Please use clear words”. It’s exhausting. When Moriarty went through brain leaps he usually got more cranky; either that or when he was sick. Her recent lack of fuse has lasted more than a week so I’m leaning toward brain leap. Maybe SHE’LL be able to read minds in another week! You never know.

There were concrete positive milestones. Moriarty has officially finished Kindergarten and will be going to first grade, in person, on Sept 1. We had a celebration with balloons and a big sign. We’ve gone shopping for school supplies and he has a lovely Paw Patrol backpack to match his Paw Patrol light-up shoes and Paw Patrol face masks. He’s set. We’re all very excited. Lorelei also starts pre-school that day. She’ll be going back to the Montessori pre-school they were at before lockdown. I’m nervous about Covid exposure, but thrilled about the social opportunities for both of them. She’ll get to make friends that don’t want to control every thing she does or game she plays. He’ll get to be loud and wild without me there!

We drove out to Idaho to see Pip’s parents again. This time his sister and her family were able to come at the same time and Moriarty had his first s’more. We got to play in the lake and enjoy the views. Lorelei had her very first ice cream at an art fair. It was wonderful to have no agenda and just enjoy family. We also had a long lovely visit from Lisa Francine, my aunt, who has also been Moriarty’s reading teacher all year. She reads to Lorelei too over zoom so those 3 were already close buds when she got here. It was amazing to see her love my babies; it helps fill that space my mom can’t. 

One last milestone that might not seem like a big deal, but was to me, is that Moriarty took care of his needs without even asking/telling us. We were all out on the porch and he was going to get some mac and cheese from the kitchen. He couldn’t find it, so instead he made himself a sandwich: pepperoni and turkey on bread (cut in half with a butter knife - he told me before I asked). Him prepping food isn’t new, but he didn’t come ask for help, he didn’t come complain he couldn’t find the mac & cheese, he just took care of himself and then came back. This is stuff we’ve been building the foundation for for 6 years, and then one day he just does it. :-)

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Other Videos:

Lorelei helping put away the silverware with sound effects

Lorelei having a picnic alone on the lawn (while we eat on the porch)

Lorelei wearing a backpack that weighs as much as her

Presents, Balloooons

Lorelei turned 2. Every time we mentioned that it was her birthday soon she’d say ‘presents, balloooooons’. The rest didn’t matter. We did have a lovely time. We celebrated when my sister, Rebecca, was in town. We made shortbread cookies and decorated them with flow icing. Lorelei got several ballooooons and some awesome presents, including stepping stones. Her physicality is just growing every week. Here’s a video of her jumping on her trampoline both backward and in circles. She’s really grown up the last 6 months. I was worried (a bit) about her language when she hardly knew 4 words at 17 months. Now, at 25, she’s saying multiword phrases every day, and sometimes stringing phrases together. My recent favorite exchange was:

Lorelei is on the changing table and I’m getting her ready for bed. She has a Sneetch stuffed animal in her hands.

Lorelei: throw up

Lisa: the Sneetch?

Lorelei: To see come over head. (clarifying tone of voice) Lorelei head. BOOOOOOM (mimes crashing into her head)

She’s also just maturing. Like making funny faces to be silly, or playing the harmonica with great intensity. She’s charming and silly, and just beautiful. I feel so lucky to be her mom.

In addition to a visit by my sister, my dad came to town. He and Moriarty played Lego breakfast-to-dinner Friday and Monday, and only a few hours on the weekend. They both helped me finish up the chicken run so our girls will have more space to play. We also went to the Roberts a few weeks ago and played with THEM. All these visits have been great, but my inner introvert is dying. I need to go be alone in a cabin in the woods for a month…um…yeah…Luckily, Moriarty is finding new ways to get his physical energy out.

And if that wasn’t enough trips and visits, we drove to Idaho to see Pip’s parents. Lorelei hadn’t really been on car rides since daycare stopped last spring, and daycare was only 5 min away. When I took her to doctor’s appointments this past year she’d say ‘all done, all done, ALL DONE’ when we were driving to/from. I thought she just wanted out of the car seat. NOPE. She’s got severe motion sickness and threw up 3 times on the way to Idaho. We had to clean off our tiny baby girl on a mountain, in the dark, with strong cold winds. Everyone was miserable. But we got there, smelly and exhausted. It was great to see his parents and Lorelei got a second birthday party. We got Dramamine to avoid a repeat on the way home. I have a PhD. I can learn things!

Lorelei SELF

A couple weeks ago most Lorelei sentences were two words, and her favorite was “Lorelei self”. She wants to put on her clothes, get & eat her food, etc. She’s her boss. She also thinks she’s my boss. “Mama up” and “mama stop” are phrases she now employs regularly. I’m not a fan of being told I’m not allowed to sit, or make coffee, or whatever it is, but I am excited by her independence and not surprised she’s bossy. Unfortunately Moriarty also thinks he’s her boss, and there’s a lot of drama stemming from that. The most frequent phrase I’ve employed the past month is “you’re not in charge of her body” which often leads to Moriarty throwing a dramatic tantrum and throwing everyone’s plans/needs off. We’re working hard on helping him practice calming down, redirecting, etc but things aren’t really improving yet. The hardest for me is seeing his tantrum/control behaviors coming out in her. She makes the same faces, same motions, and I know it’s to be expected but it’s infuriating.

Lorelei has made some big strides in the last month. She is officially potty trained, and the only accidents are rare and outside. She gets distracted playing and even though we bring out a little potty she sometimes doesn’t make it. Otherwise, she’s doing amazingly well. We got her adorable little underwear including some boy shorts! (from a specialty online shop because as a small 21 month old nothing on Amazon fit). She’s also stringing more words together. Yesterday she told me to “come this way”. OMG. She’s also started using the balance board and learning to use Moriarty’s stilts. She gets the concept of raising her hand with her foot, but not how far or hard she has to raise the stilt. I’m blown away. She likes to twirl in circles in the kitchen until she’s dizzy like a whirling dervish. It’s a game of hers. She loves to play tea set but hasn’t figured out that she should stop before the cup is overflowing! Lastly, while we were playing with colored blocks from a board game and putting them away, she would intentionally put the blocks in the wrong color bin and watch my reaction. She’s trolling me. She’s got a lot of Pip in her!

Moriarty’s big changes are in building and hacking. He and Pip are playing Minecraft most days, and Moriarty can play alone, build things, explore, and be creative. He and Pip are also taking a class from a youtube maker we like. It’s based around 3 ‘builds’ where they brainstorm ideas, research ideas, narrow down, and prototype them. So far Moriarty has made a snack lanyard. You hang it around your neck and it keeps your snacks from falling on the ground while you’re outside or in the car. The adults taking this class are making more complicated things but our goal was for Moriarty to get a foundation in the process and be proud of creating his ideas. It’s incredible to watch. He’s reading more and getting more comfortable with self correction. 

Aside from Moriarty’s frequent tantrums and refusing to give Lorelei space, he can also be incredibly sweet to her. He helps if she needs the potty and Pip and I are in other rooms and didn’t hear her. He invents games for them to play and can be so gentle and kind. It makes me confused, but also grateful that he clearly adores her and wants to help her.

And, to bury the lede, we have CHICKENS!!! We have 5, all different breeds. Some lay blue and green eggs. We’ve named 4 so far: Lady Godiva, EnderChick, Pot Pie, and Inara. You can tell we let the children participate! They’re growing up so fast, the chickens that is. We’ve been taking them in yard since it got sunny. Too much fun. The first week we had them I caught Lorelei running down the hall with a wet wipe in her hand shouting “CLEAN BIRD”.

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Moriarty’s slow mo vid

OMG 6!

It’s official. He’s all grown up. Well, he thinks he is. I know the truth. That doesn’t detract from his charms. He has now lost 2 teeth so there’s evidence to support his claims. For his birthday we did a socially distanced outdoor party with his twin cousins. They played on his present, the ninja training obstacle course. Moriarty and I designed a cupcake cake styled after the centipede from James and the Giant Peach (which we were reading at the time). He helped with all stages from design to final presentation. I insisted the legs have boots of another color. It was really fun. 

Last year Pip and I started him on an allowance to give him a chance to make decisions about purchases, delayed gratification, etc. However we haven’t been able to leave the house, so we worked up a scheme with my dad. Given the opportunity he would fill my house with Lego for the boy, but I saw this as an opportunity to merge spoiling him with the allowance idea. We created the Lego store. My dad sent many (many) sets, I broke them out by price, then we give Moriarty an allowance every week to shop in the store. He can choose to spend it all at once, or save some toward a larger set he can’t afford on one week’s allowance. I think this is brilliant! It did have the side effect that he whines and begs more, but we’re setting clear boundaries or the store will be closed for a while. Thus far he has saved $5 out of his $100…

His reading is getting much better. This week he read 10ish pages of Hop on Pop to me, without help. He’s sounding out words, self-correcting, using pictures as guides, and it’s amazing. He’s been doing science experiments with the nanny and I got to walk him through is first graph. He also helped me with actual science for work (adhesive efficacy).

Pip, Moriarty, and I have also added daily meditation to our night-time routine. We pick a short (5-10ish) min guided meditation and do it together. Often the facilitator asks rhetorical questions, but Moriarty answers them out loud. He kinda whispers his answers. I have to try really hard not to laugh. After bedtime ritual I get some alone time and the boys play Minecraft. It’s the only screen time he gets these days and I like that it’s a building game and they do it together. Pip is super into it too.

Lorelei is talking a lot more. She’s repeating many words we say, initiating a new word every day, and using all this new power to boss me around. Mama sit! Come. Help. Cashews cashews cashews! Water water icccccccccce (she’s obsessed with ice water because we all drink ice water). She’s making a lot of animal sounds with cock-a-doodle-doo being the funniest. She’s also still obsessed with Barbara Ann and asks for it many times a day (and music/dance in general). She knows that there are pictures of her in my phone so she’ll take it out of my pocket and say ‘show’ or just ‘Lorelei’. She loves to go outside and signals this by putting on her boots then coming to find us. But she also wears other people’s shoes so sometimes it’s Pip’s slippers, or Moriarty’s boots. She also wants to wear all of Moriarty’s clothes, often several layers over her own clothes. That works out fine because he prefers to live in his underwear. Actually, he’d prefer to be naked but I won’t let him sit on any furniture naked so here we are.

Her physical skills are improving. For Christmas the kids got a climbing dome but she’s too short to use the larger spacing, so I created a cargo net for her to climb. She’s also started jumping off stools and trying to do forward rolls. We tried potty training a month or so ago but after 7 days she still wasn’t identifying the sensation of pee before it happened. We paused and will restart this weekend. She tells us when she’s peed. She asks to use the potty. She’s obsessed with her poop. She’s ready. Hopefully that connection will hit this time.

It feels like the kids are actually playing together now. Not all the time, of course, but before Moriarty would play near her, but now he makes up games that include her. We were waiting for this and it’s amazing.

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Other videos

Moriarty kissing his slipper

Lorelei reading Dr. Seuss while wearing Pip’s sock

Lorelei: Corn monster

Moriarty’s first snow angel (he’s bad at it!)

Moriarty made tape body armor

Stop Book

Christmas happened. We survived. End of blog. 

Seriously, though. Christmas was hard. A week ago our nanny had a Covid exposure and started 2 week quarantine. Lorelei had some very high fevers Monday/Tuesday that we wrote off to a generic baby virus. Then Wednesday the nanny tested positive. And then I kinda freaked out. Christmas Eve we all got tested. The kids screamed and I had to hold them down. It was awful. But our real Christmas present was negative tests all around. 

There were presents too, which were great, but the fear of the kids getting sick was really scary for me. I am in the habit of getting the kids physical exertion toys so the big present to them both was a geodesic climbing dome. Moriarty can really scale it already. Lorelei is doing some hanging and balancing on the rounded base. I’m planning to get a rope ladder with smaller spacings for her to climb up/down until she’s taller. The physical activities seem to be paying off. Lorelei is full on jumping on our little trampoline and he’s leaping off everything. He still has more tantrums than I expected for his age but we’re going to keep working on identifying and processing emotions before he turns into a raging cat creature that doesn’t talk and screams and kicks. It’s hard.

Back to happy things, other gift highlights included some learning toys (books, dry erase tablet for letter practice, etc), a dangerous toy (bow and arrow!), and some creative play/art toys (coffee maker play set, modeling dough, markers, etc). I’m really pleased with the range and the avoidance of loud plastic noisemaking stuff. 

Much of this month has been spent outside. The weather is incredible and we’re preparing for out spring goal of chickens (to give me fresh eggs every day). To get there we had to clear a ton of blackberry, and then regrade that part of the yard. There’s a stone fireplace cairn-looking thing in that area so Pip has been making epic fires with the kids help while I clear and dig up blackberry to burn. 

I kinda buried the lede but Lorelei made her first sentence. I mentioned her language explosion last month; this is next level! At night we read books to her while she has bottle, as her bedtime routine. We usually get through 2-3 books while she drinks then she wants her FAVORITE book, Barnyard Dance. This was a recommendation from my sister Jennifer many years ago and both my kids were obsessed with it. So after the bottle Lorelei gets up (often with me and Moriarty) and we dance, jump, twirl, and bow to the chanty book cadence. When she’s sick of a given book she uses her hand to shut it. Well, a few nights ago she finished her bottle and said ‘stop book’ while shutting the book so we would move onto Barnyard Dance. OMG OMG it was so exciting. Putting together words to form phrases is a big next step and it happened so fast. 

Things are hard, but also really wonderful. 

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Sort of singing Barbra Ann by the Beach Boys (you can hear Moriarty in the background)

Saying ‘Mo’, but a weird breathy growly version

Wearing Daddy’s hat

Well, He’s Reading and She’s Talking - Now What?

Moriarty has been having reading lessons for several months now and is legit reading. He’s recognizing sight words, he’s sounding out words, he’s identifying letter blends. It’s SO COOL. This week he read an entire book for very early readers. He’s so proud. We’re so proud. He’s also getting better with 2- and 3-digit numbers. We practice reading times on the microwave, on timers, scales, the thermometer, etc. I try to build in random practice rather than make it a specific lesson time where we work on numbers. 

Another type of practice he’s doing is with his nanny. They set up Mo’s Diner and Market. He practices writing by filling in the specials board. He practices math by having people pay and creating change. He role plays as the diner owner taking orders or helping people shop in the market. It’s charming. I’ve eaten a dozen plastic food meals. The market has been taken down and they’re setting up a workshop for making Christmas toys. 

Lorelei is scheduled for her 18 month well baby visit this month. Our pediatrician gave us a questionnaire about her current abilities and the questions about language started with ‘does your baby say 8 words beyond mama/dada’, and ended with ‘does your baby initiate 2-word phrases’. Um...A month ago she was saying maybe 4 words past mama/dada (this, bump, uh-oh and hot). She’s been on the slower side for spoken language, which is common in younger siblings because so many people are around figuring out what she wants. But I was stressing, because I’m a person who chooses stressing out over being rational and calm. Then something clicked. And she started saying a word a day, or more. Within a week she’d added: book, up, apple, bye bye, dance, and bath. There are easily 10 more since. My personal favorite was dance. We were in the kitchen having breakfast. Lorelei got up and stood in the middle of the floor and said ‘dance’, then pranced around the kitchen island. She looked at me again and said ‘dance’ and did it over and over. Incredible. Her current favorite book is Barnyard Dance and she gets off the couch to dance to it every night during book time.

Moriarty can be very motivated and responsible, but also very controlling with his sister. He’s gotten obsessed with mopping and wants to mop every day. I’m not complaining, I want to encourage all cleaning and organizing initiatives. But he needs a lot of help and that’s kinda draining. I could do without having to tell him every single day not to put things in his sister’s mouth or take things out (mostly pacifiers). That she doesn’t want to be picked up like a doll. That he needs to respect her space when she asks for it. That’s the most draining. 

We did have some fun holiday highlights. Since Moriarty couldn’t go trick-or-treating we set up a scavenger hunt throughout the yard with candy in tupperwares. We had a lot of fun. He got a set of fairy surprises that the adults conspire to bring fairy magic to him, mostly art stuff. It included a set of fairy runes and their meanings and Pip used the laser cutter to write the runes on leaves for Moriarty to find. Amazing use of technology IMO. We’re trying hard to not let Covid keep him from having positive memories of this year. There’s a lot of discussion right now about the vaccine and how it’ll save everything blah blah yay yay. But no one has started doing tests on children. So we’re still trapped in a position of not having them start school/daycare until they’re vaccinated, possibly fall or later of next year. It’s sinking in that this has no end in sight. 

So we don’t end on such a downer, Pip and Moriarty were watching a nature wilderness show on YouTube. The guy (‘safely’) gets bitten or stung by things and then talks about the creature and safety precautions. Moriarty LOVES it. On a recent episode where the YouTuber was being bitten by leeches, Moriarty said, ‘This is cool. I LIKE looking at blood.’ We certainly discuss medical stuff a lot and I’m proud to be raising someone like me.

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Lorelei playing a falling game

Lorelei eating kale
Lorelei alone on the trampoline

Kids rolling cars down slide

Lorelei directed this video about her socks. She asked Pip to take it, there were multiple takes.

Moriarty slow motion

Lorelei wanting things

Kids on little trampoline

Sh*t Moriarty Says Catch-up Post

I collect the hysterical things he says in my phone, but I forgot to include them in the last couple posts. So, here’s the lot.

We were listening to Jump in the Line (Dance Senora, by Harry Belafonte) and he was explaining the song. “There’s a line on chalk where they’re not supposed to be and they cross it and jump on the line!”

We were using Google microphone where the commands start with ‘OK Google’. After a few minutes he told me, “I can’t wait until Google sees me when we meet”.

We were listening to the Weezer Song, Undone (The Sweater Song) which has the repeating lyric ‘if you want to destroy my sweater’. Moriarty listened hard and then asked, “did they take out the zipper first?”

Pip was getting take-out lunch and we were waiting at home. Moriarty asked if Pip was getting them “at the drive out?”

Pip, Moriarty, and I were starting to read bedtime books and Moriarty spurted, “pause pause pause, I need to get my underwear on now.”

Moriarty walked up to Pip and I and said about Lorelei, “she has stuff in her eye. I found it with my laser.” So we quickly clarified, “oh you should definitely not be putting lasers in your sister’s eye.”

Input - Need Input

Pip and I watched Short Circuit last week. Aside from the (profoundly) racist stereotyping, it’s held up really well. Number 5 spends so much time walking around seeking “input” and I’ve realized that’s what Lorelei is doing but she says “dis” (might be “this”?). She’ll point to something or look at something and say “dis”, over and over again. We’ll name the thing(s), rinse, repeat. It’s charming and exhausting. But she’s learning at lightning pace. She can point out objects and animals in her books now. She can follow directions reliably. She’s making more word sounds (and some animal sounds masquerading as word sounds) but mostly the new word use is sign language. She’s up on “more”, and “down”, “thirsty” is a toss up, whereas “all done” is a sign she knows but prefers to throw the food on the floor as the announcement she’s finished…Another fun new skill of hers is using a spoon to feed herself. It’s messy, but it’s progress. She has yet to throw the spoon as a sign of being all done, for now.

A few weeks ago we found ourselves on the bridge after dark and Pip started playing Tiny Dancer on his phone and we had our first ever Bridge Dance Party. There have been a few since. I prefer Abba over Elton John, but Beatles is welcome too. Moriarty and I pretend to be whirling dervishes and spin until we’re really dizzy, which upon reflection, is probably an activity better done NOT on a bridge, but alas. Lorelei doesn’t need a formal dance party to dance, it’s become a regular part of her self expression. If I’m singing, she’ll dance. If there’s music playing, she’ll dance. If you ask her if she’d like to dance she says “DAS” and dances. The only other thing that gets her as excited is swinging (tree swing outside). She has also adopted this jaunty walk everywhere she goes which adds to the sense of constant dancing. 

Moriarty’s self expression this month has centered more on his hair decor. We got a box of Cocoa Pebbles with Flintstones characters on it and he got curious and then wanted to dress like Bam Bam with stuff in a ponytail on his head. The first day he was Socky, then came Whisky, Geary, Corny, and lastly Salty. (highlights in the pictures) I keep offering to get his hair cut if he wants but he declines. He loves having the longest hair.

I’m most excited by the progress Moriarty is making in reading. I’ve been holding my breath until he can read because it unlocks so many more games, adventures, and activities. And it’s happening! He’s starting to sound out words, to identify sight words, to put new sounds together. It’s so exciting and he’s having so much fun. Lisa Francine is still tutoring him over Zoom. His nanny is helping him practice with word games and letter shaping, and the last time we read Hop on Pop he could read so many words!!! He’s only 5 but he seems so grown up. When life becomes safer again and Moriarty can go back into the world, I’m so excited to see him navigate school and friends and be his social self more completely.

Other miscellaneous updates, my job is stable but isolating since it’s impossible to get to know people through Zoom when you have no reason to interact. Lorelei is too small for off-the-shelf rain gear; they don’t sell “tuff” suits or rain boots in her size so we had to roll up sleeves and pad with big socks. Moriarty is obsessed with the song The Lion Sleeps Tonight and hums it constantly. AHAHHHHHHHH We harvested beets and CORN from our garden. I made a super cool birthday cake for myself with lemon cake and whipped chocolate ganache frosting. I’m a novice master baker.

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Random Vids

Moriarty showing off his cool door sign

Lorelei using a hairbrush, somewhat for it’s purpose

Lorelei collecting rain water in a cup

Lorelei correcting a great wrong in the placement of magnets across the room

Lorelei loving Da, her new lovey

Climb Every Ladder, Splash Every Stream

It’s summer. That means tons of fresh fruit and veg. We’ve grown sugar snap peas and have corn and beets coming soon. The neighbor has given us fresh cucumbers and plums. Lorelei discovered corn and it was glorious. We’re also spending a ton of time outdoors. We inset a plastic tub in the ground so Lorelei could climb in and play, but she mostly likes to throw toys in and watch the splash. There has also been a lot of sprinkler under the trampoline time. 

Lorelei is a climber. As soon as she could walk she started climbing. She already loved to climb up/down the stairs, but now she seems to think she can just walk down them...The trampoline ladder is a big favorite. And of course the 12 foot ladder I was using to clean the gutters. The biggest problem is she’s fearless and doesn’t always look at how far down it is. She also has a strong inner cat and will sit in anything she physically can (or almost can). That includes kitchen drawers, plastic bins, her car seat, and small toy boxes. Occasionally she gets stuck and her consternation is pretty adorable. 

We’re pretty sure she’s started talking. She definitely says dada and mama and usually they’re directed at Pip and I respectively. She also might be saying nana. She’s still only signing all done and a version of more, which is surprising to me, but she’s her own person. I’m dying for the day she says Mo at Moriarty. My heart will melt.

My stress level is slowly lowering, slowly. I finished my old job and start the new one in 2 weeks. I’m taking a real break and trying to decompress but at first my anxiety just flared way up. The new nanny (Debbie) started a couple weeks ago. We went through 2 other nannies between Katie and Debbie. The first short term nanny let Moriarty play alone in the creek and jumped full out on the trampoline while Lorelei was on it. We tried to give her the benefit of the doubt, but I couldn’t sleep from worry so we just replaced her quickly. The next had an injury flare up and was put on extreme light duty the day after she started. AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH So we just paid a placement service and found Debbie. She has a background as a nanny, subbing in Montessori classrooms, teaching Kindergarten, etc. Debbie is also helping Moriarty with his emotion management. Before Covid Moriarty had full on meltdown tantrums about once a month? Give or take. Starting mid summer it changed to most days. I think he’s just suffering from missing friends, and limited activities, and jealousy of the baby, and fear of Covid. Helping him when he’s screaming, flailing, headbutting, and hitting us is a new level of draining. Having another adult with a little more emotional distance is helping so much. The school district schedule had the kids in front of the computer 6 hours a day so I pulled him from the district and we’ll home school. I’ll have to figure out how to add more social time to his life, but do it safely.

All that said, the good times are really good. The giggles are contagious. The cuteness is overwhelming. Moriarty is still struggling to give Lorelei space when she asks for it, but we’re working on it. He just loves her SO much. It could be worse.

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Masked Reinforcements Welcome!

The highlight of the month is definitely Lorelei learning to walk. It started slow. For a couple weeks there were a total of 15 steps or so. She was teasing us. Then one evening Pip started messaging me saying she was walking. Like across the room, and back. She’d just figured it out. For about 2 days she did the Sumo walk on her toes, then things got more stable. She’s great with stairs and loves to go up and down. It’s become really aggravating because now when  we spend time in the driveway area she can walk away. Either into the street or up the concrete stairs. I get about ¼ as much weeding done but we’re having a lot of fun. She doesn’t like wearing shoes or socks so we mostly let her walk around barefoot. I’m told that’s better for learning anyway. She’s hardy and will walk over concrete, mulch, rocks, and gravel!

She’s learning a lot of other things too. I decided it was time to switch from a sippy cup to a real cup (she’d also bitten the tip off the sippy cup). So we practiced on the back porch. It took about a week and now she’s adept with a cup! Better than with a straw in fact. It’s such a huge transition. She’s not a baby anymore. At all. She’s insistent on what she wants and whines and points until we figure it out. She loves to take our shoes and walk them across the house. She wants all the toys Moriarty has. When we call her name to ask her to stop doing something, or to come back to us, she often turns, smiles, giggles, and goes back to what she was doing. Classic toddler time.

The playgrounds at the parks have been closed since Covid started so we’ve been using what we already have. We got Moriarty a pedal bike a couple months ago but he was really anxious about using it. He’s fantastic on his balance bike, and this month he found the courage and started using the pedal bike. He doesn’t pedal fast enough to keep his momentum up but it’s started. Lorelei can’t use the playground swings, but we have a disc swing Moriarty uses. It occurred to me we could hold Lorelei and swing. OH YEAH! She’s also started trying to jump on the little trampoline herself. We often play on the big one as a family, more tag and rolling games than proper jumping. She’s learning to let him know when she needs space, but he often ignores it and we have to intervene. 

Moriarty’s big leap this month was using his phone to make movies. The nanny has been helping him think through a beginning, middle, and end. They make costumes and props and then film his movies. There are a couple videos for your enjoyment. I didn’t include any of the 40 minute disorganized ones with several restarts! He’s just so much bigger. Lisa Francine has started giving him reading lessons and he’s so grown up.

Now that we’re at the end of the charming blog post, there’s always more to the story. Moriarty still throws hour long tantrums over stupid kid stuff, but his world is very uncertain and I’m very stressed out, so I understand it’s harder for him than usual. Our nanny leaves at the end of the week and while we finally have another lined up (OMG YAY!!!) it’s stressful for all of us. I still don’t know what the fall will look like. I haven’t pinned down my next job. We don’t know if Moriarty’s kindergarten will be remote through the district or home schooled. We refuse to send him into school. It’s too risky while so many people are being irresponsible and selfish about basic protections. Lorelei can’t be placated with a simple toy or binkie anymore, which is a hard shift for the whole family. One afternoon she pushed a foot stool over to a book shelf, climbed up, and got into all the tiny toys Moriarty puts up there to keep away from her. Exciting! But exhausting. She’s not using any words or baby sign yet so it’s all shrieking and pointing and expecting everyone to magically understand. I’m working so hard to keep up some semblance of self care and happy mom time, but I’m really depleted. Luckily the contagious giggle sure go a long way.

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Independent Lines, Independent Lady

Lorelei took her first steps. We’ve been trying to coax her to walk for weeks. There are many videos of her almost walking, but losing her nerve. But we were playing beside the couch and she faced away from me and took 4 steps. The symbolism is not lost on me. A few months ago the kids’ daycare had an art night where we got to see all the art the kids had made. Lorelei’s class “helped” the teachers glue pre-cut shapes a la Matisse. Her teacher named her picture Independent Lines, Independent Lady because Lo didn’t want any help putting the shapes down. She’s going to figure it out herself. I couldn’t be prouder.

Life here looks remarkably similar to life a month ago. Shelter-in-place feels comfortable in many ways. We did get a nanny because Pip and I weren’t able to focus on work and the kids weren’t getting enough attention. Her name is Katie. She’s fantastic but will leave for grad school in 5-6 weeks so I’m interviewing au pairs too. Moriarty has someone to play super hero games with him all day. Lorelei has someone to play blocks. It’s really good. They’re happier and it creates more moments for snuggly goodness.

Lorelei has started singing and dancing a little. I’ll put on music, most recently it was the Indigo Girls, and she’ll bounce up and down. She still laughs like a dolphin and it’s painfully cute. She LOVES to pull the kleenex out of the box one at a time and mound them up. I pre-loaded a box with scarves to let her play that game without making such a mess. Lots of things are growing out of control including the plants in the garden and my hair. This is secret to navigating all the awkward hair stages to grow out really short hair. #silverlining

I’m going to share this and hope that it doesn’t hurt Moriarty’s feelings when he reads it. Pip and I are pretty honest about things many parents see as harmless fantasy lies, like Santa Clause. We think the kids can enjoy the magic and the season without believing in things that aren’t real, partly because when kids learn they aren’t real later they sometimes feel betrayed. So, we say that some families believe in Santa, but we don’t. On a phone call with my dad a couple weeks ago Moriarty confided in a whisper “my people don’t believe in Santa, but I do”. He couldn’t be cuter.

—> the rest is mostly me talking about my life not the kids

I’m a whirlwind of emotions as I interview for jobs and juggle hiring nanny/au pair help, plus work my full time job including going into my office a day a week. I’m frazzled. I’m full of self-doubt. It’s bleeding into home life. But I have to find a job that fits my brain, my heart, and my family. It’s a big ask. Covid is highlighting the desperate need for good point-of-care testing and I happen to have spent 10 years studying that. So I feel like I have to make every effort to find a role doing that or I’ll regret it forever.

To cope with my stress we’ve been baking. Moriarty helps. He’s the master sifter, and pretty good at using measuring spoons. But he doesn’t like having the sticky dough on his hands. We made the cranberry for Lorelei’s birthday, then blueberry, then pumpkin, then pumpkin cranberry. I’ve learned that you have to work the dough enough to get all the dry mixed in (I erred on the underworked side to avoid the overworked side - hrm), and you have to use heavy whipping cream. The recipe says buttermilk is fine but it’s lying. Don’t trust it!

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The Introverts Downfall (and Lorelei's 1st birthday)

As we were preparing dinner tonight Moriarty announced that tomorrow would be the New Years Eve party. He started talking about the food, activities, and saying over and over he knew it wasn’t really New Years Eve, but he was pretending. While we were eating he informed us that after dinner we would need to do our training. As a staunch introvert, what could possibly be worse than a party? A training session on how to attend a party. 

He is really into superheroes right now and has named many parts of our yard as the bases where his superhero adventures happen. There’s Resting Base, under an incredible rhododendron, Upload Base, in the outdoor eating area, and Ninja Base, close to the road but hidden by the plants so you can see the cars but they can’t see you. Every day Pip and I are led on adventures where we have some task Moriarty makes up on the spot, and we run between bases, and do stuff, and earn tools, and do missions. This has really helped me understand that in some ways I preferred things when he couldn’t run. But it is great to be outside and moving all through the yard enjoying our plants. He’s been obsessed with seeing pictures and videos of himself for years and just last night figured out the old cell phone we gave him as a timer and white noise source has a camera. He took about 50 photos so far. I’ll start including highlights of Moriarty’s photography next post.

We’re planting a garden this year, but unlike last year we have put measures in place to ensure we’ll get more than 2 carrots and a hand full of beans (last year’s haul). We added chicken wire to the bottom of the fence to guard against bunnies, we built raised beds and put high quality soil in, and planted a bunch of stuff last weekend. Now tiny green sprouts are appearing in neat rows and next we get to teach Moriarty about weeding and caring for the plants. It’s awesome. Oh, and Lorelei likes to eat the dirt.

Lorelei is as charming as ever. She’s ready to walk physically but not psychologically. We tricked Moriarty into walking by setting 2 chairs a couple steps apart and putting his favorite stuffed monkey on the other chair. He happily walked to Monkey. But Lorelei doesn’t have a lovey and so far has seen through my attempts to trick her. She hasn’t really done any more talking or signing. We’re theorizing she’s getting her needs met just fine without it so why bother. It would be nice to have a little more direction when we eat like, yes I want more, vs I actually want that other thing on the table, vs I have a  lot of feelings and want to squawk and hold out my arms. She sounds a lot like a droid with the chuffing, squeaks, squawks, and shrieks. Sunday is her birthday and since I don’t want to give her sugary foods yet Moriarty and I made birthday cranberry scones. Delicious!!!

The kids are still playing really well together. He brings her into his room or they hang out in the Great Room and play for long periods of time. I’m not sure what they’re doing, but they’re happy. He still has typical preschool judgement lapses like when he informed us “she has stuff in her eye. I found it with my laser”... He meant LED finger light, but that was a teaching moment about how we shouldn’t shine lasers in the baby’s eye. He means well and hasn’t sent her to the hospital yet. One silver lining to the Covid madness is that both kids have gotten better at entertaining themselves. Lorelei in particular. I’m not thrilled that she’s in this position, but we’re all doing our best.

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Lo in the garden, including her eating some dirt

Moriarty swinging

Thor’s Baby

Kiddos laughing and eating

Moriarty doing science (mentos in diet coke)

Moriarty doing engineering, helping Pip at work

Moriarty doing faux science

Loli in a wagon (to keep her safe in the shop)

Mama hummingbird feeding her babies - she nested outside the kitchen window

The New Normal

If absence makes the heart grow fonder, I think quarantine makes the nerves grow frazzled. So, I’m an introvert. Big time. I picked a career where I spend at least 5 hours a day alone, listening to music, and not having to talk to anyone. Well, times have changed. The kids have been home from daycare for 6 weeks. My salvation now is putting in headphones and cleaning the kitchen/house while Pip covers the kids for a while in the evenings, or taking a bath between Lorelei’s 5:30 am feeding and when she wakes back up an hour or so later wanting to play. Our tentative end to Shelter In Place is May 4th but I expect it to be extended.

To help Moriarty have some schedule I created a laser-cut scheduler board with tiles for all his activities (outside time, cartoons, 1:1 with parents, school “work”, etc). The board has clocks and times so we can plot out his day around our meetings, and make sure his needs are getting met. I’m not sure they ever actually get met, but we’re doing our best. I’m utilizing skype calls with his friends and dance parties with Lisa Francine to get him more social connection. Luckily it’s summer and we’re outside a lot. He has only worn pajamas for a month, and prefers to just be in his underwear. He always wears it backward because the cooler patterns are on the butt. He’s a typical goofy 5 year old. He’s also had some really cute moments. I caught him singing to his sister one morning and heard a snippet of his lyrics, “when she is stinky I don’t care, she’s just a little Loli bear.” He’s pushing into new math skills like subtraction and informed us confidently at dinner that 2-4 is 8. Then rattled off “one two three four five six seven eight” really fast to prove his point. He’s also continuing to show curiosity. He and Pip were watching a fire and Moriarty asked what fire is made of. Pip was struggling to give an accurate answer, but in a way Moriarty could understand so what I heard was a lot of (not quoting!) um...well, there’s gasses. And there’s this thing called combustion and…

We’ve been trying to make sure he has enriching activities not just TV. Pip took him on a smelly scavenger hunt from a book he has. They smelled nice things like flowers, but also smelly things like mud and compost. I’ve been playing a lot of word games with him and he’s started sounding out simple words! His bike balancing skills have really improved. We bought him a pedal bike but he’s nervous about it. He can ride his balance bike down our hills and crash and laugh about it so I know he’s ready for the pedal bike when he wants to try again. Pip has been doing science with him and he and I have been doing a lot of baking.

Lorelei is developing at lightning pace. She was army crawling for months and just figured out how to crawl on hands and knees one day, so now she’s much speedier. She hasn’t signed back to us but seems to understand a lot of what we’re saying and doing. And she’s quite good at expressing herself. She had a wad of paper I wanted to take so I held out my hand and she put the paper in. Pip put her to bed and realized there was no binkie so he walked to get one and came back to find her sitting up with her hand out. He gave her the bink and she laid down. She signals to us when she wants to go to bed by releasing from our chest and reaching for her bed. It’s not like any other baby I’ve heard about. She’s teething and more fussy since we can’t give her as much attention while we work so we’ve gotten relaxed about binkies during the day. I don’t love it, but it seems to help with her teeth pain. She’s also cruising a lot and becoming more daring so she’s falling more. It’s scary and heartbreaking but I know it’s part of learning. The best new baby thing is the dolphin laugh. No idea how it started but it’s incredible. She’s eating almost everything we eat. She’s starting to feed herself (badly) and is very vocal about wanting food and being in control of her eating.

As a family we’re focused this summer on building garden beds and growing veggies. We tried somewhat last year but didn’t have raised beds and our fence still let the bunnies though. We netted a few sugar snap peas and 3 carrots. We will do better this year!!! Part of being in the garden so much means Lorelei is eating a lot of dirt. She seems to enjoy being in the grass and touching the plants. Moriarty is both her biggest fan and her biggest antagonizer.

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Other cute videos

Lorelei pulling out a box of kleenex

Lorelei wants my barrette

Lorelei is frustrated by Pip

Lorelei hiding in the drapes

The End is [not] Nigh

We’re living through the apocalypse. I really like infectious diseases so I’m well read on things like 1918 flu and quarantine, but it’s quite different to live it with 2 small kids in the house. Pip and I have been working from home for weeks now, and for about a week with the kids. That means Lorelei spends a lot of time on the floor near my desk. Sometimes she tries to topple my desk, since it’s the perfect height for pulling up. She’s also discovered that flipping the switch on the power strip turns the light off and on. Endless fun! We also put up the old busy board we had made for Moriarty and she’s very into the door stop spring

Turns out she's a unicorn baby. If she seems sleepy at all we can walk into her room and she reaches for her bed, grabs a binkie and lays down. It's not at all like Moriarty who needed half an hour of bouncing and singing, or more. And, an exciting milestone, she signed milk this week and started waving. She waves goodbye at the coworkers on my video calls.

Moriarty is showing concern and anxiety around all the changes. First his field trips got cancelled, then school got very serious about hand washing and talked about corona virus. Then I was working from home, then Pip, then he stopped going to school. The zoo is closed, and so on. He’s definitely anxious so we’ve been trying to reassure him that he’s safe, and we’re safe, and the virus is most dangerous for people who are old and sick, but his grandparents are all being very careful, etc. It seems to be helping but he’s definitely old enough to get that this is really bad.

We’re trying to create structure for Moriarty. Some TV, some free play, some sister play, some academics, lots of time outside, etc. It’s not always well received, but he needs it. I had a bad mommy moment yesterday. First I’d moved all my computer/work stuff outside so I could be near him while he played, then after 5 min he wanted to come inside. No, it’s outside time!!! I moved here, we’re gonna hang outside. He threw an enormous tantrum that was so draining. We recovered and 2 hours later he was throwing another enormous tantrum about having a pancake as a snack (after I’d gotten him a large and wonderful snack). I completely lost it. I actually threw a pancake at him. I can’t believe I was that angry and immature. We both calmed down, but this quarantine thing is making us all more touchy. Pip and I are getting more intentional about focused time with him, and he's started having Skype dance parties with Aunt Lisa [Francine]. She entertains him and gets some wiggles out.

It does help that the weather has turned and we all want to be out in the yard for an hour in the evening (Moriarty wants us to play with him, then he’s thrilled to be outside). Nature is exploding too. Pip caught our woodpecker on video, the daffodils are blooming like mad, and we put 3 new trees in the ground: another flower cherry, a fruiting plum, and a combination fruiting asian pear. That means it’s 4 types of pear grafted to a single tree. We’ve been slaying blackberries like crazy. Moriarty is good with clippers but not ready for a big shovel. He used a hand saw to cut a large branch that was blocking a walkway (that we finally uncovered under the blackberries). 

Moriarty had his 5th birthday party. It was amazing. We went to the inflatable bouncy house place. Part of the time was in black light and the kids had glow stick necklaces. Moriarty and I went in the wind tunnel. He got a slot car set for his birthday and was figuring it out, Day 1. He and I made his cake from scratch. He designed it, a large fire engine made partly of strawberry cake and party of rice crispy treats. He watches baking shows with me so he was clear he wanted buttercream and fondant. He chose pink and red fondant colors, and in the end we had a pretty incredible cake! He helped with all the parts but his attention span couldn’t quite do it all. But I was so proud and he was thrilled to make something he designed. Baking is so fun, but it’s also a way to sneak in some math. I got measuring cups that are shaped like the “pieces of the pie”, to help visualize fractions. We have to split batter in half for two pans, etc. Surreptitious teaching is my favorite.

Lorelei is growing. She’s more talkative, her tongue is out half the time, she’s learning to wave and give high fives. She has eczema so she’s getting more baths now and the splashing and giggle is incredible. I like her focus and curiosity. She does this thing where she shakes her head in a ‘no’ fashion but she’s not saying no. I have no idea what it’s about but it’s signature Lorelei. 

The kiddos are playing well with each other. Moriarty likes to take toys that she’s found and I don’t want him grabbing stuff she has. So, the rule is, if she finds it and can’t easily break it, she gets to play until she’s done. If he leaves a transformer toy on the floor, he can’t snatch it back. It’s helping him keep his toys up! And respect her more. He adores her though. They play and he lets her wack on him and ride him.

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Pat Pat Pat

When Lorelei is sad we hug her and pat her back. Sometime last month she started hugging us back, and patting our backs. So she’ll be crying and sad and comforting us at the same time. The empathy pours. She’s doing lots of other cute stuff like clapping, giggling, sitting up and eating solid food. She really enjoys broccoli, sweet potato, eggs, and smashed up avocado. I keep offering banana but she’s not as excited yet.

Moriarty has been getting more into baking. We took another decorating class, this time it was flow cookies. That’s where you take a simple short bread or sugar cookie and then put really runny icing on top so the colors flow into each other and make a shiny solid surface. He did surprisingly well. He’s always the youngest kid by far but he was able to use the piping bags and made some recognizable cookies! Next weekend we’ll be making his birthday cake. He designed it. It’s a giant fire truck. I’ll let you enjoy the anticipation.

The Baltimore Lafleurs visited for a few days. Unfortunately we all got a stomach flu so the big meals and plans got simplified, but it was great to see them. They got to enjoy the kids and that was the point. 

Today is Moriarty’s birthday. He’s 5. I have his kindergarten registration paperwork in my backpack. He’s going to be in Kindergarten! It’s a huge cliche that “they grow up so fast”. But 27.8% of his years at home are over. (That assumes he leaves at 18 which I will strongly encourage). He still seems like such a baby, but he’s actually growing up so fast. Excuse me while I wallow in nostalgia cliche land and hide in shame. It’s really exciting though. He tried out roller skating, ice skating, and bowling recently. He got a science set for Christmas and now he asks to “do science”. Every new skill he gets, every new phrase or vocab word, it’s just all exciting. He’s really cool. And he’s so gentle and loving to Lorelei.

For the last few days a young man name Alex has been staying at the house. He’s a Bernie staffer and was reassigned to Washington after the Iowa Caucus. I had put my name down to host, at some point, and got a call at dinner asking if we could host that night. It reminded me of all the times my parents did stuff like that. Person from the church needs a place that night, no problem. Exchange student needs a place, no problem. I’m so hopeful about Bernie’s potential to bring American’s together but my time is limited. I can’t be the one out there organizing and running events with a full time job and 2 small kids. But I can offer my room and model for my kids that this is how I live my life. I believe in this cause, and I will take action to support it. There aren’t a lot of volunteering options for 5 year olds. We’ve taken him to collect donations for the food bank, but that’s infrequent. He watches everything we do. He absorbs who we show our character to be not the things we say we believe. So this week I’m showing my son that when I believe in a cause I’ll go really far to help it out.